Susan notes that Jews in Hungary were only rounded up in 1944. She speaks of her family and herself being transported to Auschwitz but explains how it was that she survived and the others died. She describes how she was chosen to be part of a work detail in Lippstadt in Germany and describes her living and working conditions at that time.
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Int: I know you came to Scotland as a result of the events of the 30s. Would you like to tell us a little about growing up and what happened to you, which resulted in you coming to Scotland?10
Susan: Hungary was an ally of the Nazis and so until 1944 although there were a number of anti-Jewish laws, you were all right; and then we found out or I don't know how I found out later, the Regent Horthy tried to get Hungary out of the war either to remain neutral or by joining the allies, and the Nazis got wind of this and that's why they occupied Hungary because nobody could dare afford (allow) that by then, by 1944 when things weren't going too well for the Nazis. So they occupied Hungary on 15th March 1944 and it shows you for instance in the Warsaw Ghetto if you think about it, it took years for people to be sent to Auschwitz or any other of the death camps, but in Hungary from 15th March the Germans came in and by 17th or 18th June I was in Auschwitz so three months and three days, you know the speed of it.20
Int : So were you moved from your own house into somebody else's house in Hungary?
Susan: We had our own house of course. It got bombed (later in the war).
Int : So you had to move? Susan: It is no longer there.
Int : Once the Nazis took over Hungary what happened to your family and yourself?
Susan : As I said, the speed at which things were going. 15th March they came in and 16th March you already had to wear the yellow star and then you had to move to what was called the ghetto, which was the street the gypsies lived in, and so presumably in other cases the gypsies moved in but it so happened that (there was) a flat at the very end of the street which was almost out of the street so it was dicey whether they would allow us to take it; it belonged to my granny's chiropodist so she moved in to our house and we moved into one room.30
Int : Was that you and your mother and your grandmother?
Susan: My parents, my sister and my grandmother. My younger sister is over there. [Susan pointed to a framed picture of her younger sister with her].
Int : 5 of you in one room?
Susan : Yes
Int : And then very quickly you were all sent to Auschwitz?
Susan: We were there perhaps a month and then we had to move to a disused brick factory beside a railway station. I don't why they had built these, presumably for transportation, beside the railway station, but it was apparently standard practice that the Nazis and therefore then the Hungarians put people in there and there was of course no water and you could take 50 kilograms of water with you but of course you had to have a sleeping bag because you were lying on the ground and there was no water of course and they brought in water every day.40
My father was in charge of distributing the water to people and we were there a very short time and then we had to line up and the cattle trucks came up and I remember the writing on it: seven horses or I think eight; 90 of us went into one carriage and you won't believe this, but there was one bucket with water to drink and one for other sanitary purposes. By this time you had to hand in all valuables, even radios and things, but of course nobody handed in everything. People, like my father too, buried things in the garden, which later, some of it came out and some of it didn't - others had been found by others. We were lucky in a way that my father was in charge of the carriage we were in that nobody went mad there; some people went mad in the course of the journey and others committed suicide, so it was one of the worst parts of it, because you were still with your family and so sad to see your granny in those conditions - it was really heart breaking.50
Then when we arrived at Auschwitz. I had never heard of Auschwitz. Auschwitz is the German name given to it; Oświęcim was the Polish name. When we got off the train, the men had to go one way straight away and the women and children had to line up and Dr Mengele, the Angel of Death, as he was nicknamed was waiting at the head of the row. I don't know if he attended every selection but when the Hungarian trains came in there were two or three transports every day and the rate of survival in those conditions, and not going straight to the gas chamber, was (extremely low); and going forward towards Mengele, I was on the left hand side and my sister, who I think then was about 11, was beside me, and then my mother and her sister who was, I think, something like eight years younger than my mother, supporting on either side of my grandmother, and then my younger cousin, who was the same age as my sister, at the end; and then, as we were coming up, if my sister had been on my mother's other side then she would have come with me; but my sister was too young and Mengele by this time was either tired of it all, or wanted to hurry, so he didn't say, "You and you and you"; because I was handy there on the left, I went one way and of course I didn't know then but my mother and my sister and about 90% I think of all the others went straight to the gas chambers.60
Int : You were young enough to work?
Susan : Yes I suppose so, and well, as they lined us up, and those who Mengele chose for life, I suppose; we went along past barbed wire and people, shaven headed, jumping up and doing it seemed like some kind of a weird dance and shouting in Hungarian I suppose but it was incomprehensible and so I said, by then I had found two of my friends, I said this must be the lunatic asylum; but half an hour later we also had our heads shaved and they had taken our clothes away and they sent us to what was showers, and the gas chambers also had showers, on them, and they were told that they were going to showers, except that there, gas came from the (showers) taps and with us it was water.70
Then, before we left Auschwitz, they put us into a building or a large room I suppose, well, it had to be quite large to contain 500 of us, called gas chamber, and we went in and we had to sit down and there was a low sort of seating in a circle and by that time we were in such a confused state of mind that we were making corny jokes about, "Wonder when they'll turn the taps on" and so on. However I can't remember who, perhaps it was an SS Sergeant, or somebody, said that we were going into Western Germany on a long train journey, but if the Red Cross, or anybody comes, and they ask us about our parents or anything, if anybody says anything that they shouldn't say, they will be shot. However, we didn't get the Red Cross to ask.
Int : This was after you spending some time in Auschwitz?80
Susan : Three months
Int : You were three months there. You didn't work during that period?
Susan : Oh no. The worst thing was that there was no water. I was in Birkenau actually, which was for the women, and there was no water, and there was a kind of ditch filled with water by the barbed wire, and you can manage without drink, you know, you can get other drinks, you know, but the less there is the more you want it, so some people went and drank from it and they ended up with typhus.
Int : What happened after you arrived and were shaved?
Susan: They shaved us all. Then they sent us to this gas chamber kind of.
Int : You washed there?90
Susan : No, there were no showers in that one.
Int : What was a typical day like in Auschwitz?
Susan: Say, 'Appell', which is roll call, at about 4 o'clock I think, in the morning, a shot came through one of the windows. 500 people in one side of a barrack does not give a lot of room to lie down, you couldn't lie down, you sat on the floor, obviously there were no beds or anything, and we sat back to back with somebody else and supported each other sitting, and then you had to go out to roll call and you stood come hail or shine - they counted us and they counted us and they re-counted us until - I think it tallied every time, but still they (insisted).
Int : How long did roll call last?100
Susan: Well they were interrupted by getting a drink of brown water, which went for coffee, and a drink of sort of yellow or reddish liquid, which went for soup, but otherwise it was until about 6 in the evening.
Int :You just stood and they would go round and count you all the time? That would have taken a long time, standing while they just kept counting you.
Susan: Oh, absolutely.
Int: Were you standing there the whole day? Did people not collapse from exhaustion? Did they not fall down?
Susan: You had no names - I was number 152.110
Int : Go back to where you were before - you were told you were being sent to Western Germany. What happened then?
Susan: They eventually got us on a train and we arrived in Western Germany in Lippstadt, and we were assigned to work there in an iron and metal works, and I don't know if it was a week or two weeks, but a very short time after we arrived I was called as I was carrying something in the factory and it was a stone floor and my glasses fell off and broke, so our own Camp Commandant was a girlhood friend of my mother's so I went to see her and I said well this is what happened and she said, "Oh well you can't go to the factory then." I said, "But why not?" I said, "I'm not blind and it is a very difficult machine work, that's all I have to do, raise my arm up and down" and she said, "Oh, but you're as blind as a bat and you cannot go back," so I didn't, and I went along into the German kitchen every day.120
Int : Do you think she did that to help you out of the ammunitions? Did she do it on purpose to make your life easier?
Int : The Camp Commandant, did she do that to make your life easier. Was it an easier life in the kitchen?
Susan: I don't know for what reason or if they just needed somebody. It sounds absolutely disgusting now but whatever the Germans left on their plates I ate it, but you were hungry. I managed to get hold of a pair of overalls and tied them at the ankle, and when I was sent to the stores for, I don't know, anything, I'd pinch a couple of onions and carrots and things and let them go right down to my ankles; so that when I had to go back to the camp and they sort of felt me around, they didn't go right down to the ankles so.130
Int : That was brave of you.
Susan: I know
Int : Did you then share that with your friends?
Susan: Yes of course, I took it to them and there came a jaundice outbreak and I had to go into Lippstadt every day with an SS Sergeant to collect a big container of some special food that was for those who had the jaundice. The only trouble was that whilst they had the jaundice, they couldn't eat, and by the time they were better they didn't get the special food, so it was a very difficult situation. It is impossible to describe the feeling I had when I went into Lippstadt and I saw buses and trams and women pushing prams, you know, that life had gone on when we were slaves.140
Int : It is bizarre isn't it like two parallel lives - one normal life totally ignoring another section of the population.
Susan: Yes. So I had to work in the German kitchen, and collected this food for the jaundiced and by this time there was quite a number of them. I also had to sweep the grounds, scrub one of the SS Officer's rooms and also a Sergeant's room and he was very kind, he left an apple on the table and pointed to it and said "Eat it" and I was afraid if I touched it then I would be, bang bang, but I ate it and nothing happened. So you know they weren't all horrible; most of them were. I feel no pity for any of the Nazis. One day I was leaning in through the window into the jaundice room talking and suddenly I felt myself sailing through the air, because one of the Germans came up behind me and kicked me on the backside.150
Then just in time for me to catch jaundice, the Camp Commandant decided that that was too much, there were too many, and he lined us all up and when it came to me, he pulled my lower eyelid down and said, "Day shift!", so I was back in the factory but day shift only.
Int: Were you and your friends not sabotaging the equipment that you were preparing? Did you try and damage the things you were making for the Nazis, I remember you said you did.
Susan: That was a bit later, firstly I was with the Italians, a monster of a machine, I don't know, I just can't remember now what it was. First of all they got their meal in the factory and instead of two meals they took up three and we had a sort of dark red bowl and people wrote in yellow paint their number on it, and mine was 152.160
The Italians collected one more than they needed, collected three instead of two, and they put it into a bowl and the Germans sooner or later discovered it, and I was terribly lucky that the bowl with the number on it, one had the pudding in and the other covering it, was the one with my number on it, because he threw that away and took the food away so he didn't know it was mine, so I was lucky that way.
Int : I believe you were finally forced onto a death march as the war drew to a close, as the Germans eventually lost the war or were losing the war. Did you remain in Lippstadt or did you have to leave?
Susan: In January 1945 about 70 people who were ill with various things were sent away by train, they said to Bergen Belsen, didn't mean a thing, and now at the end of March or the middle of March I suppose, a rat poison incident and falling asleep when170
Int : Tell Angela about the rat poison.
Susan : I told you that that our Camp Commandant was a girlhood friend of my mother, so she expected me to go and see her at least once a week, but by this time the air raids were absolutely non stop, practically, so I was on permanent day shift, but my friends were one week day shift and one week night shift, and when they were on night shift then they obviously slept during the day. When the air raids came the Germans were desperate to get to the shelter, even the Polish guest workers, and everybody went to the shelter except the Jews; we had to go back to our camp right beside the factory. We had to go back there.180
They put on the high voltage, and ran to the shelter and that was that. We knew that we were going to be evacuated, so I went to see Renee, that was the name of the Camp Commandant, and yet another raid, all the lights out and as I came out I said, "I must get back to our room", and coming out of her room, which led on to a biggish room where the bread was distributed, and in the dark I bumped into this cupboard, and as I tried to find my way, the door opened and there was this big carton, and it was open. I put my hand inside and it felt like small (granules), the size of peas perhaps, and I tasted one. Stupid of me, I could have fell down dead on the spot but you didn't think of these things so, I tasted it, and immediately I felt a raging thirst so I didn't take any more but I took it with me, and I sort of made my way back somehow slowly to my room and I said, "Anybody hungry?".190
Ask a stupid question! I said, "OK then, hold out your hand" and they said "What is it?", and I said "I don't' know; it's some kind of cereal that I found in the cupboard outside Renee's room". So in the dark, the complete darkness, people held out their hands and I poured, until it was finished, but I had very little because as I say it made me very thirsty and another trip down to the end of the corridor where the water was, I just didn't fancy, so when the lights came on, we looked at the box and it said Rat Poison. Heavens! We didn't have a doctor but there was a nurse in charge so we went along, about seven or eight of us, whom I treated so kindly, and the nurse said, "Well, you have only just eaten it so it will still be in your stomach undigested so make yourself sick and bring it up and you'll be OK".200
So we said, "Yes, OK", and everybody duly brought back what they had eaten, except two people, a girl called Bianca or Blanche and me, so we tried - we pushed spoons down our throat but nothing doing. Then because we were being evacuated and supposed to be walking to Belsen, we sort of forgot about it, and we marched only by night, and during the day they put us into some kind of barn and the second, I think it was the third day, that we were liberated by the Americans, and this girl, Blanche, said to me then, the Italians - I said they had given me a pouch with the lipstick and so on, well I took out the comb and broke it in two so each barrack had a half a comb, because you only had this much hair but it was all the more precious.210
As I say, we got liberated, and then Blanche said, "Listen, give me your comb, because I haven't had a comb in my hair for I don't know how long", so I gave her the comb and she started brushing and it was absolutely horrifying
Int : Did her hair fall out with the rat poison?
Susan: It came out. She became completely bald, but not the way we were bald when the Germans shaved us. She was a very dark girl and you could tell from when she had hair, completely black, and her eyebrows still black but she was getting absolutely hysterical (because the hair was coming out in her comb). So somebody said there was a cottage hospital a few miles away, so we got hold of a couple of bicycles.220
First of all, Bianca's German wasn't very good, and also I was the supplier of the evil stuff, so I felt (a responsibility). So we went along, we cycled, and they took her, and they massaged her head; they gave her cream and I interpreted and so after, I don't know, perhaps half an hour or an hour, they came to me and with a big smile on their face, one of the doctors said, "Now, I can't tell you what is going to happen, because I don't know if the roots have been destroyed or not. If the roots have been destroyed, then she is not going to get her hair back, but if they haven't, she might, but it's going to be a long job; and so it was - it took about six months for her hair to start growing again.230
Int : Going back to Auchswitz, you went to a few selections before Mengele when you were at Auschwitz, didn't you?
Susan: Not a few, perhaps two or three
Int : Was there not one when you said you thought you heard your mother's voice when you lost your glasses?
Susan : I don't know if this happened, probably not every time, but at that particular selection, if you wore glasses, you weren't chosen. You were left behind in Auschwitz. So, we were in row 5, and the first one got chosen to go, you know was taken out of the row and made to stand against the barrack and the second one was my friend Eva, she is still in Hungary.240
Then it was Yoli, and then it was me and a cousin, not of mine, but a cousin of Choisi's (Susan's cousin, who survived the war, as she had emigrated to Palestine) or an aunt of Choisi's, who was behind us. She was my mother's age, I suppose, and we were all chosen. Yoli was behind me, she was very, very small and sort of thin and when the three of us had been chosen and it came to the row where Yoli was behind Mengele, we all sort of stuck out our chests, but before that when it came to my row, I didn't know that my mother was dead, that she had been put to the gas chamber half an hour after we arrived, but I swear to this day I heard my mother's voice saying "Off with those glasses!", and I took them off and sort of pushed them with my feet under me, I had to stand in my birthday suit, and250
Int : That saved your life? With glasses you would have been selected for the gas chamber?
Susan : I don't know for sure.
Int : That's what you heard?
Susan: I think Mengele changed his mind. He was very interested in experiments with twins.
Int : What did you say you did with your food cutting it up? How did you manage? Did they give you a square of bread a day in Auschwitz?
Susan: We got one slice of bread a day. That was in the evening and it was one of those things, I was obsessed by the idea of, they wanted to make animals of us, well I'll not let them. So that's why for instance, one day I'd think in Hungarian, the next day I'd think in German, the next day I'd think in French. I had a number of languages. I had practically no Hebrew but I had some words.260
Int : So you what did you do with your bread to prove you were human?
Susan: What I did was, the way I'd think in these languages, I also decided that one day I used to get the bread and wolf it down
Int : Most people wolfed it down immediately?
Susan: No not everybody, somebody you know
Int : Judith Rosenberg?
Susan: How do you know?
Int : You told me before
Susan: Did I?
Int : What did Judith do?270
Susan: She cut it up into dainty little squares so she had her breakfast: she had her three course lunch: and she had her three course dinner.
Int : Did you not cut yours into pieces as well, you didn't wolf yours down right away, did you? Did you not break it in to pieces, not as small as Judith's, but did you not keep some for later?
Susan: I don't know, but the thing is you were risking it getting stolen
Int : I thought you normally would break yours up into pieces and have some at one time, some of it later, I think you told me that.